Change of seasons...Autumn is here!

Things change, children grow up, and life marches on. Last Sunday at church, during worship I watched a father carrying in his sleeping baby. I gazed longingly at the baby as I could almost feel his breath on my cheek as he slept soundly. Then all of the sudden my own children dimmed the dreamy experience I was having. When did they get so big? As quickly as I glanced at my two big boys, tears began to fall without avail. The little boy that I had worked so hard to get him to even notice my feelings turned to me and loudly questioned, "Why are you crying?" I couldn't stop crying either. Of course my family is now staring at me wondering what is wrong with me now. It had just hit me at that moment that I no longer had babies, nor would I have them back again. My children will both be double digit boys in less than two weeks. I managed to pull it together to finish the service and tried to turn off the water works as we filed out of the church passed all of the little babies.



Why do we worry about so many things, rather than enjoying the moments of each special day? Why did I worry so much about all the things that Hayden(who is challenged by autism) would be able to do? I had the pleasure, just this morning to sit and listen to him have a complete conversation with an adult that he had just met the night before. Hayden complemented, questioned, and answered without skipping a beat. I sat quietly grinning to myself thinking, "That's my boy!" God continues to whisper, "Be still, and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

God provided a sleeping angel for me to hold last night. I offered to help a tired mommy of twins carry in one of her soundly sleeping baby girls. I continued to provide relief to the mommy's arms and basked in the sweet moment of holding a sleeping baby and feeling that sweet breath on my cheek. Thank you God, that was a gift that I needed that only You knew and could provide.

Now things have changed from sweet smelling baby's breath to...Did you brush your teeth this morning?(ugh) Cherish these moments that you have with your children because my mom was right when she said that time goes by too fast. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to teach my boys. It is good to know them, see the growth and changes occurring in their lives.

Each new season has beauty of it's own. Autumn is gorgeous with all of it's colors to delight our eyes. My boys are changing and growing into what God has planned for their lives and I am excited to see what happens next.

I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. Psalms 34:4

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This is the day that the Lord has made let us rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24

Do you sometimes feel as if you are a plate juggler? I remember watching a famous juggler on stage spinning these dinner plates round and round. Each plate needed his guiding hand to push it more and more. If the juggler took his eyes off the plate and forgot it, the plates would begin to fall. I am so glad that I am not in control of all the plates that God has given me to keep spinning. I am so easily distracted that I know they would simply crash. He knows which plates need our attention. That's why we get these little promptings in our ears. Do we listen or do we continue to focus on another plate?

I am teaching you the way of wisdom; I am guiding you on straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hindered; when you run, you will not stumble. Proverbs 4:11-12

Thank you God for keeping all these plates spinning. I can't do it myself. I know you have given me these plates, some will fall and some will break. I know you will provide new plates that you
want me to spin. Help me to have courage to keep spinning the plates that you want me to spin, and give me peace to pick up the pieces and start again. In Jesus' name. ~amen